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New: To this community and to ageplay
by playful_whisper (playful_whisper)
at January 12th, 2008 (10:52 am)
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current mood: worried

Before reading onward, please note that anytime I mention being younger in a sexual or non-sexual manner, I am referring to myself, an 18-year-old. Hi. I'm new to the whole concept of ageplay. I found this community and decided to check it out. It sounds like something that I'd be interested in. Ever since I was little, I always wanted to be younger and smaller. Whenever I would play pretend with my friends, I would always want to be the littlest. I never knew why. I would like to be younger than I am. Now I am 18 but I wish I was somewhere between infancy and age 12. I'm usually mistaken for being younger. I saw this one website where I typed in my height and I'm the average height of a 12-year-old. I usually dress younger than I am and my height allows me to wear kids clothes but I need to lose some weight and inches to do it as easily as I used to. I want to lose weight in a healthy manner though because I used to have an eating disorder and that was not good. I usually get mistaken for 14 or 15-years-old sometimes younger. I wish I could be mistaken for about 9-12. I suppose that I might enjoy ageplay now because my middle school years sucked but then why would I always have wanted youth even when I was youthful? Please, if anyone can shed some light on this it would be greatly appreciated. Me wanting to act like a little kid and be younger is not entirely sexual. In fact, a large part of it is just me having fun. I think being a little kid is way more fun than being an adult. You can find joy in the little things. You can find fun in anything. This is not to say that adults don't have these capabilities, it's just that they come easier to children. I really feel like kids do have more fun. I want to play the games I used to. I love playing pretend and playing outside and it's a much easier time when you are a child. Not as many responsibilities or things to worry about. Another part of it is sexual. I have become quite interested in the concept of "Lolita." I have not read the book as I do have problems with reading and I'm also lazy, but I have seen both movie versions and I loved the one directed by Adrian Lynne (not sure if I spelled his name right). I wish that I could have the combination of childlikeness and sexuality. I do believe I have both. Because of problems I had in middle school though my sexual growth has been stunted and now I'm trying to grow in that area and possibly my physical growth was stunted because of my eating disorder. I always feel like I want someone to take care of me and that's probably because of middle school. I'm not looking for a mommy or a daddy though. I am in a committed relationship that I've been in for almost 2 years. I wish I could learn more about ageplay and figure out where I could do ageplay roleplay. I would need those involved to understand though that it would just be roleplay and I would have to talk to my boyfriend about that. He has no problem with me doing sexual roleplaying online, he just wants to make sure that no one gets too attached and I think that that is fine so if I was to do one, I'd prolly talk to him first. I like ageplay for being able to be a kid and have fun, playing on playgrounds and going to waterparks. (I think they should make bigger playgrounds for um...adult children if that is the word.) I also like it for being able to be a young student seducing a teacher or professor or getting seduced. Sorry this entry is so long; really I am here to learn more and I'm hoping to meet some new friends with similar interests.

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Posted by: samigurumi (samigurumi)
Posted at: March 24th, 2008 07:17 pm (UTC)

hi there its always tough when you first start out to figgure out who you are and what it is you want exactly, some people never manage it. there are some kids play parks that have super sized slides and swings and stuff. i know one time when i was at a safari park in scotland they had a massive jungle gym sorta bit that i played on for hours (i was 23 at the time LOL) so you just gotta know where to look

Posted by: playful_whisper (playful_whisper)
Posted at: March 25th, 2008 12:41 am (UTC)

That's awesome!!! I wanna go on a huge jungle gym. I'm not too terribly tall actually...

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